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Lately i have had bad toughts that i was worried about like quickly visualizing a loved one with a grey aura and say in my mind (name)____ is getting cancer. Or sometime when i would use the "ahh meditation" i would think about bad things for a secont during the meditation like a loved one getting cancer (this was all unwanted toughts). So to make sure that nothing bad happen i would put an aura of protection to the loved ones by visualizing them with a white/gold aura and i would put a purple aura to the loved ones that repel destrucive energy and i would clean their auras just to be safe. But not a long time ago the grandfather of someone that i know got cancer now AND someone that my parents know also have cancer and these two are about to die! i dont think it is a coincidence so i was wondering if it was my fault. Maybe the bad energy rebounded to someone else?? And i really need to understand energy and have more knowledge about it. thx