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Background: I was in a Domme/sub relationship with an older gentleman who was also teaching me magick. I found out a little while after we began that he is a very dark, sadistic, twisted individual. While I did learn a lot from him, much of it I have forgotten because of the toll it takes on me. The way we parted was...rather bad. He would not let me go, and even threatened me with the health/life of my sister should I attempt to leave him. I am very protective of my sister. Luckily, my parents got me out of there and back home, but no charges were able to be brought because he had already fled the state.

Since that time, I have had crippling nightmares and have felt as if a part of me is missing. I know many people aren't going to believe this and that's okay, but those who do, I need the help. I have a Dissociative Personality Disorder, and I know one of them is from my time with him. I believe that if I can retrieve whatever part of me he took, I can essentially meld the other personality back with my own. I think perhaps my DPD may be more of a spiritual nature than a mental one. The other one is happy to stay apart and I am happy to leave him apart; it is mutually beneficial.