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So I am on parole and due to discharge in a few months, but I am going through this process that I have not decided yet what to name it, sometimes I call it ascension or waking up, it has symptoms similar to kundalini. Whatever the case, it has me a total wreck most of the time. I know that I am not delusional, I am crazy but not the certifiable type, or at least not until this happened. Sometimes I feel normal or at least good but good for me these days is like "the world is mine, I am magic and untouchable" But that changes literally at the drop of a dime. And I'm stuck replaying thoughts of how much I must look like a complete idiot and what is wrong with me, what's real, what isn't? I experienced a very significant moment that I can not exactly just announce with out fear of both being thought of as out of my mind, and if the person believes me , will they want to harm me or something. I am so scared of the judicial system and police and anybody who works for them. I avoided my p.o. appointment and every time I think I am going to call, I don't. So Iwe need advice on what is happening and is there any chance of getting this to disappear or me disappearing. I'm sure a spell isn't a realistic option for a way out of my issue but if you witnessed even 1/4 of things that are not considered realistic like I have this past year. You might understand why I believe that it's worth the effort to try anyway. Please just respond with anything but get an attorney or something like that. Thank you for any advice. ..