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Is the universe against me? I'm just so upset its like everyone else is falling in love and I'm all alone. I believe my spell will work but there's this voice in my head saying I will fail like the last time. I think it's my depression saying these things. Sometimes, well most of the time I wanna kill myself because he's the only thing that makes me happy. Even though he's hurt me so horribly I still want him back I would do anything to get him back in my arms and for him to hold me tight again for him to smile at me for him to kiss me. But I'm on my own and I feel so empty all my energy is drained and my chakras have be blocked for 8 months it feels like I'm dying almost. My desire feels so close but so far away. Like I can see and touch it but it's like something is making me wait or making me work for it. I'm like a dog jumping to get a treat but my owner won't give it to me. I'm almost there but I feel like giving up and ending it all and killing myself. What's happening to me and my spell?