So, I've looked into Voodoo/Voudou more because it interested me, scared me a little bit, and I wanted to understand it. What I found was very powerful and relatable, and I thought it to be a beautiful religion.
A few nights later, I had this dream about it where I was meeting with a group of Voodoo people, and since I labeled myself as Wiccan before that, some of that got mixed into the dream. It was like this coven I met with only they practiced Voodoo in secret, and you could get to them by knocking on a certain door of this store and asking to buy a certain product, sort of like a code. Anyways, in the dream, I was dancing and I was wearing this necklace that had a black animal skull on it of some kind, and it was very important. I woke up the next morning feeling very inspired.
Several nights later, I may have contacted a Voodoo spirit, but I'm not sure. I wanted to talk to a more experienced practitioner about it. The spirit's name kept popping into my head and playing over and over, just like whenever I'm about to meet another deity. So I finally thought, 'What the heck? Might as well talk.' We had a conversation of a sort, only I don't remember much about it because it was in the middle of the night. I think the spirit told me I needed to let go and stop having such a tight grip of control of my life. After that, I felt a warmth and the sensation of being lifted up for a little while and put back down. After that, I felt more relaxed than I had in years and fell into a deep sleep. It was by far one of the most powerful experiences I've had with a deity. The spirit was so strong I felt like it could have knocked me out.
Anyways, I'm stilled kind of scared to get involved with Voodoo. I feel like it would be a cultural appropriation and that they wouldn't take kindly to white people. Nevertheless, I still can't deny the experience I had. So my question is, do any of you think I should still pursue it?