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i had a vivid dream where i lay down during a storm and died. it wasnt bad, there was nothing after death. no thoughts, no feeling, nothing except a vague sort of warmth. this dream has meaning to me; death without an afterlife isnt a scary or bad thing. there was a time where we didnt exist, and to return to it is a beautiful and peaceful thing. life still has value, but death isnt a bad experience (for the person dying, at least). its probably the only thing worth mentioning here that i kind of understand
not too long before the previous dream, i was wide awake, wishing deeply to experience being someone else. desperately prayed for whatever deities there are to help, and suddenly had conditions pop into my mind; i could experience a different body, but if i saw my reflection the experience would end and could never be repeated. still awake, i heard a bunch of odd beeping sounds as my body began to shake and felt like it was being lifted away. suddenly i was another person, i looked down to see a different body, i felt different sensations, i was in a different place. i was startled, i got up quickly, and saw that there was a mirror leaning on a nearby wall. i fell into my bed, back in the body i have now.
ive never been comfortable with my gender, even from a young age. i dont know if that experience made me feel better or worse in the long run, but it was certainly relevant.
heard that beeping when near sleep for a few years after that in that bedroom. lights of different colors, often paired like eyes, would reflect from the outside of the windows in that house. the house was out of the way in the countryside, line of sight to the nearest public road was blocked by a few clusters of trees.
not really an experience but kind of fun to tell about, on the same property there was a rusted-out old car wrapped around a tree. i dont know if its true, but my grandma said one of the conditions of buying the property was to leave the car where it was. that was a pretty spooky car! i used to wonder about the story behind it a lot.
despite me being still, small objects around me used to sometimes jump a few inches off the ground for no apparent reason.
i once heard a loud, deep voice say something from no direction in particular; i forgot exactly what it said, but i remember being surprised when i heard my cousin (i think he was about five at the time?) repeat it to my aunt seconds later!
in another house's bedroom (the one im in right now), an empty shoebox lifted itself off the ground. i got scared and ran out of the room, when i got back it was on my bed in a vertical position. i put it away without any issue.
i havent had anything as crazy as that happen since, but i still get odd feelings in this room; i get more impulsive than normal, and get urges to start artistic projects that i dont have any interest in elsewhere. the light in that room also tends to behave oddly, it sometimes quickly dims or brightens on its own.
the ceiling fan just started clicking while i typed that, haha. probably coincidence, but still makes me a little nervous.
slightly less years ago, decided to take a short nap mid-afternoon. walked into a forest. wind was blowing down a circular path. the source of the wind was a glowing woman, bright like the sun, face somehow completely abstract and impossible to comprehend yet awe-inspiringly beautiful. i asked her if i knew her name. after a moment, she said yes. with that i woke up, only about fifteen minutes after i fell asleep. it was extremely vivid, the memory of this dream really stuck with me.
most recent big thing that happened was at a motel in new mexico. a light woke me up late at night. when i opened my eyes, a glowing gas-like orb quickly hovered away to the door. it was reflecting off of different things in the room, like any normal light source. i was scared at first, but i kind of wanted it to come back once it was gone. mostly out of curiosity, i guess.

mostly signed up to share these experiences ive had. is there meaning to them im missing? have you ever had stuff like this happen to you too? sorry if its kind of ramble-y, im right about to go to sleep