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I am brand new to magic and I desperately need help! I am only 13 years old and i want to learn. Along time ago I met a man and he told me to be true and keep an open mind and I have followed that rule.BUT my entire family disagrees with magic and says that if i do it i will go to hell because it is devil worship! I and now my family and I are at war because they think i worship the devil. And I really want to do magic to heal my grandmother who suffers from a illness i ascendantly put on her when i was angry with my dad and cursed her but at the time i was 8 years old and didnt know what i was doing and the thing is all i said was i curse you're mothers soul! And it was done now she may die in a few months! Is there anything i can do i dunno if i have magic ability'Will someone would help?