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This past month has been a hard one for me in particular, My dog who was like my kid and was only 6yrs old, past the 18th. People have told me I'm doing better, but it still hurts To come home at night from work knowing my best friend isn't there to greet me, it hurts to walk past her food dish, to still find her hair all over my stuff, or to climb into bed or grab a shirt and still smell her. I catch myself waking in the middle of the night and then panicking because I wonder where she is. I sob like a big 24yr old baby every time a damn Corgi shows up on the T.V. And yet it's strange, because it doesn't feel like shes really gone. like she could still walk into my room at any moment. Or I'll wake up in the morning and she'll be there with her big soft eyes.
Someone said "my god you're behaving like you lost a husband." then told me to just get over it, that she was just a dog, Yes she was just a dog, but she was my dog. I've had her since I had to help her mother give birth to her. We went everywhere together. when I moved out she was all I had, and I was all she had, even though she was just a dog, she was my very best friend, and the best dog I've ever had the pleasure of growing up with.
My boyfriend and roommates have been so awesome just being there for me I know at some point I'll be okay but for now I'm in unknown territory...