Hi there peeps, I'm new around here so hello. I don't have much of desire to practice high magic or become a pagan but I am willing to take the neccessary steps in order to resolve a problem that has been bothering me of late after making a long recovery from a very unstable and emotianaly shattering period of my life, so here it goes...
About 5 years ago I was in my house when all of a sudden out of the blue I became aware of a looming sense of danger in my home; I was sitting in the lounge watching TV and suddenly panicked for my saftey, I imediatley stood up and observed my immediate surrounds for an explanation for my uneasiness. A few moments passed and I moved to the hallway, as I turned my back I felt somthing behind me enter my sorroundings and out of the corner of my eye saw what can only be described as a black boomerang just about miss my back, a few seconds later the sense of doom and danger had gone and I began to fathom what a just happend. I came to the conclusion that what had happend was suppernatural and the possibilty a curse or bad spirit had tried to exert vengencance on me. within a few days I had forgot about the experience and got back to my normal life.
Heres what happen next...
My drug consuption suddenly went from happy go lucky raver (weekend use) to hard abuse of LSD, Vallium, Heroin and crack cocaine. I lost my job and home and was forced to move home with my parents. My mother couldn't cope with my mental state and situation wich lead to her taking her life and I became clinicaly depresed and later diagnosed with paraniod psychosis. Since then I have experienced other 'bouts of bad energy mostley when dealing with bad drug experiences which finaly led to myself getting clean and going to rehab, I am now again in full control of my life and my drug use is limted to controlable social 'treats'.
Im looking for some answers on what happend and possable advice on keeping my life free from bad energy and spirits. If anyone is experienced with divination and thinks they have somthing to tell me please come forward and do so. I have some experience with medatation and the use of a pentagram from my school years and am open to sugestions.