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Hi! I'm kind of new, and my name is Violet (Spiritually I'm pretty sure)And of this morning, I've been trying to carve my own wand. I took the branch from a fig tree in my backyard that I have climbed and relaxed/meditated in over the course of about 4 years now. The thing is, even before I asked the tree to take it's "arm", I felt heavy guilt. As I neared the tree and thought about taking his branch, the guilt lowered and I pushed it to the back of my mind. Mind you, I am a very determined and passionate person. Once I have a goal, I'll go do it exactly how I want to, even if it hurts me or the other...Unfortunately I took the branch and after I'd started carving the guilt resurfaced, but in my state I kept on relentlessly. Time passed and I managed to accidentally slice the tip of my left thumb knuckle (part where the skin wrinkled when you straighten your finger), and after I cam back from a few hours of break, I slipped even harder and the knife once again hit me. This one was significantly worse however, as the tip of my left thumb was sliced at the skin just by the tip of the nail, and down the side and inside of the nail. So pretty much, I sliced my thumbnail in half. -_- Bot times I was cutting towards myself in fast and determined mindset. Could this be because of my wrongly stealing the arm of my fig tree, or just bad karma because I didn't listen to my father telling me not to cut towards myself? I feel it could be both.....Can someone help me with this question please? I'm seeking answers humbly...I'm sorry If I bothered anyone.