Back when I was 14-15 years old I used to frequent a spiritual forum, I was active there for around 2 and a half years. Maybe a bit young to start digging into the depths of the Occult and spirituality but that was what peaked my interest at that time. I dived into astral projection, aura reading, past life regressions and many other things. After a while I got in contact with a group of people who were also active on this site, I began skyping with them, bonding with them, doing "spiritual" work together, they would tell me about my "past" lifes in such detail were I couldn't make my mind up whether they were nuts, very creative or... speaking the truth. Sooner or later I was being praised as the new messiah I was one of them, "special guardians" to safe this planet or whatever.
(please note I am being totally serious) This group and a woman in particular (around the age of 30) had a keen interest in me which at that age was very heartwarming I felt like I had a place where I belonged, I didn't see myself as a messiah I was just a boy but I went a long with it all, because part of me wanted to believe the things they told me. After a while, I started gettting uncomfortable, things were getting sexual so I rejected those things, I started to reject them, and the more I disengaged from them, the worse they made me be. if that makes any sense, I went from being their next messiah to satan incarnate. At the point where I nearly cut them off, to be able to get a long with my own life ( I was around 16 1/2 here ) This group hated me and "cursed" me, I never believed in curses I thought if I paid no attention to it, or gave myself to a higher power god for example, all would be right. But I am 22 now. And ever since they have "cursed" me I feel like my life as been off the rails, things don't go the way I want them to go or how it should go, I have many strings of bad luck, and physically I aint doing all that great either. After I had been cursed I got diagnosed with a kidney disease which to this day I am not sure of whether its just a mere coincidence or this "curse". Over the years I have developed depression and social anxiety even though as a kid I was very outgoing and warm. The reason why I am posting all this is because recently I have been confronted with this idea of this "curse" again. I mean the idea that it might've been true was in the back of my mind..basically forever but I went to a shaman,light worker someone who senses my energy and I had a really nice conversation with the guy for about 3 hours. After he did a reading he told me there were a darker presence in my spiritual body, almost like a curse ( I didn't tell him about that beforehand) So I told him the whole experience I just shared with you and he said that might've been what he felt.
Now, if anyone can help me, if I am truly cursed is there a way to get rid of it? a spell? a meditation a prayer anything? I want to get further in my life, do the things I want to do, but now it only feels like i am sinking deepter into this pit.
Thanks in advance
and with kind regards