I think the reason I have gone from religion to religion, philosophy to philosophy is my desire for power. Although I get angry and paranoid, I think I could really be a powerful person if I work hard enough. However, I have a barrier in my mind and spirit against black magic; to play with free will might cause serious punishment now and after my death.
I have a natural affinity for stichomancy/bibliomancy, but I don't think these will totally serve my purposes. How can you help me?