Maybe because you've been on this site for over two years (maybe more), and you don't bother to try and study magick yourself and learn how it works, before doing anything. Most of the people on this site won't cast spells for you, because they believe that it's better done on your own.
This is going to be hard to hear, but sometimes things aren't meant to be. Sometimes no matter the want, and the ache to have, the Universe doesn't give it to you, simply because it isn't for you.
People have given you recommendations and advice over and over again on the multiple threads that you've written over the course of two or so years. So why not take the advice?