So, this is a topic I really would like feedback for. Please read and try to understand.
For a while, I've considered myself as a Wiccan. In my time exploring Wicca, I never really felt like polytheism was right for me. For me, polytheism is too broad to go by. I see the pantheons and different god/dess personas as different faces of the same Divine mystery or being, whatever it is. But, I've gotten interested into the science of the universe and now I'm starting to view the existence of a higher being as nothing existing at all. I'm leaning towards agnostic. As much as I do like some Wiccan concepts, at this point in my life I feel that it is too hard to believe in any interpersonal being(s). I also cherish the spirituality witchcraft offers. The lifestyle is something I never want to leave me. I have been studying all of this officially for nine years, but I'm in my times of spiritual doubt.
This is the question: how does one develop a 110% pantheist approach to witchcraft? How does one USE witchcraft in itself to explore and find better suited beliefs for their self? I know the choice of what I believe is for me to create on my own. I just need help in understanding how to work with this new idea of exploring my spirit through just witchcraft that isn't attached to much religion.
I hope this all makes sense. Thanks for your time.