Yo ! I, myself is bipolar and I don't trust most doctors. If you want you could go here (real-wishes.com) It works trust me! Though you might really have dissociative identity disorder instead of bipolar disorder. In this one you have multiple of personalities. In some cases that each personality doesn't know that each one actually exists, and in some they know. Anyway, I hope this helps! :)
I have bi polar as well, and ever since I have started meditation, I have felt way better about myself and my situations. Even though I take medication, I feel way better after I meditate. Something that pills could not give me. I suggest you try this.