I am just like you! We seem to match perfectly (Indigo Child), but please don't say "wizard", witch is preferable, and it applies to both genders. I would suggest start looking into making Psi balls and energy manipulation, since that is what you're looking for, information can be found on both subjects on this site, just type it in the search bar. You can also consider looking into meditation, which will help with storing energy and emotions, which will lead to more success in your spells. Anyway, hope this helps a little :) Good luck and blessed be!