I am new to talking to others about what other would call 'against the natural order'. I have always been aware of the supernatural, both in the world around us and within myself. I don't fully comprehend any of this though.
Welcome to the Spells of Magic, I wouldn't call magick "supernature", in actuallity it's quite natural. The word "supernatural" means unnatural. Since you are new, I would suggest reading the basics. The basics will help you learn more about, magick, how to use it, and many other important qualities to learn before getting into it.
You can find some of these in the "Articles" or in the "Forums", you can also read books. Reminder, not all books will carry the truth, and not one book know the true meaning behind magick. The books and people on this site, are here to help you lead down your own path.