You can try the below info, but it sounds like you could be clinically depressed, in which case you may want to see a doctor to help you as well. A primary care Doctor could give you something for depression, it doesn't have to be a mental health doctor.
You can edit it as you will. I have used it with success before.
Take (Childs? name) anger take (insert Childs name) pain, wash it away like a gentle rain.
Into the ground where it be bound, berry it deep where it not be found.
This child of love this child of light, rid him/her of anger overcome the fight.
What is done is done it stay in the past, the emotional issues are over they no longer last.
Released here in this witches flame, released is all the anger and pane.
No longer shall (name of child) hurt due to any past deed, no longer shall (name of child) suffer this my words do head.
Negative is gone from your sight, opened is a new door in magicks light.
Now you question magick and mystery, your interested in change and interested in magicks history.
You walk the path where ever you will, knowledge and power your desires you fulfill.
No longer are you hindered by any hurt or pane, all negative flow out of you into the ground it drain.
I bid hear this day this hour, in divinities light with divinities power.
All negative gone calmness remain, I cast now by this witches flame.
Candle color; Birthday candle of blue and white will work.
Most effective; 3 days during the waxing phase of the moon, could be the night before of and after full moon.
Runes in circle at bottom of paper: God/fertility, good fortune, love, wealth/good fortune, physical health/vitality, protection/overcome resistance, journey/take control, gift for skill/knowledge, joy/comfort/blessings, goddess/fertility/emotional stability, trust/motion/adjustments, self improvement. (choose from 4 or more)