I am new one here and I found this site by the spell of getting my ex girlfriend back.
She broke up with me on 03.10 and ever since I've been really hurt. Yesterday I got a heart attack and collapsed, but after that I haven't had physical pain in my heart at least, but I cry every night and beg her to come back.
I know she loves me a lot, because some days ago she forced me to say final goodbyes. I am confused about what is going on. We were together for two years and she was a sweet,loyal,smart and thoughtful girl. Ever since she turned 18 she started with "I am grown up not and not a child" thing and she wants to get rid of me.
When I asked her to stay friends she told me that ex partners can't stay friends.
There are reasons why we broke up and lots of things are my fault. I used to abuse her and threaten her when I got mad and I really regret this.
I am reading a lot and so to change, so when she comes back to me I am a changed man who could make her to the happiest life being in the whole universe.
Now I cannot contact her, because after I had a heart attack I called her a lot and messaged her how much I need her. She said it's harrasment and she'll report me to the police if I contact her again.
When we said our goodbyes I was talking with a friend about other girls and she got angry at me. After when she calmed down she said that I was her best friend and we were a great team and she'll always care about me. I know she loves me.
I love her a lot too and maybe you could give me some spells and links how to do things exactly? I am afraid of screwing it up, because I dont want to hurt her or myself, especially her.