As nichiren said, it takes along time to find out who you are and what you stand for. Often , we find that certain events may make us question what we first thought to be you , and that could cause a change. However , it is quite normal not to fully understand who you are till you reach deep into old age. We are always learning something new about ourselves every day
As nichiren has offered , I shall too.
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