It of course is your choice to seek a spell for this and that I can not offer help with but what I can say is that if you are "hurting" people as much as you feel you are this is as much their path in life as your own and it is destined to be so. There is something you are teaching them along this path and as you follow along you will finally bump into the entity that will make it all make sense to you. Its a consideration that you would change the course of thiings destined to be in your life and you may miss something worth walking this path for.
Your rushing because you just want to feel that closeness and as for your anger no one gets that better than I do I have put up with that in so much pure intensity. So let me really help u with this can I? Are u up for it?
Why would you need assistance with that?
Will you actually let your feelings and flaws be stronger than you, are you that weak?
First of all forget spells. Look into yourself and fix yourself, don't seek an answer outside because what you erase will eventually come back to you anyway. What's inherent to you, or to the human being, can never be erased, only disguised.
Be alone for a while. Say no to every possible relationship. Meditate on yourself and your feelings, and when you're healed, start thinking on saying "yes" to a new person