I've been meditating on and off for a bit as a stepping stone into magic, but I have a couple questions about going a bit further. How do I know if I had gathered energy? What does it feel like? Is it physical, emotional or something else?
Also, I meditated with my eyes open today and it was very different. I put myself into a theatre and approached a woman in a dress. She turned and said hi, then (this is actually funny) she asked me if I wanted to do it doggy style. In the real world, I'd probably be like "hell yeah", but on instinct I jumped back and said "no, I'm not like that, I have respect". I ran away and felt eyes watching me in the theatre, like actually felt them. Once I got to the lobby, my mom was there and he told me she came here to see the woman I was going to marry. I turned and the woman in the dress was there. Again I said "no, this is not meant to be". I ran outside and sat next to a tree. I felt so comfortable in the grass next to that tree. I took out my Dream Journal that I use sometimes, then I realized I was dreaming (not actually dreaming, but in my day dream I was dreaming if that makes sense). My mom and the woman were watching me from the entrance (which was now my old high school) as if they couldn't go beyond the door. I heard a fire truck in the distance and ran to help, feeling the wind in my face. When I got there, it wasn't a fire truck, but an ambulance with an old woman on a stretcher. She'd been shot. She told me to protect her son, David. I said I couldn't, that I wasn't powerful yet. Then I looked up at the sky and yelled. Suddenly I was in my Field of Dreams (an empty beautiful place I like to go when I meditate) It was thundering there for the first time ever. I told the sun to come out and it took 3 attempts to actually work (mental blockage I guess) Then I opened my eyes.
Does this mean anything? What have I accomplished? I'm not very knowledgable on meditating or magic, so maybe someone could help me out. I basically sat down with my eyes open and thought on instinct. I tried to make it a rich enviroment using all my senses and I think it worked. Ansd btw, I know no one named David, I don't even have a gf and I haven't been to high school in over 3 years.
Sorry for the long story, but thanks for the help.