first, you shouldn't swear, against the forum rules.
what it sounds to me, you have a lot of hardships in your waking life that spills into your dreams. you feel happy/peace/whatever when you study [not particularly wicca, but your path brings you joy] while you shouldn't let your life be consumed by your spirituality, you need to connect with the part of yourself your path brings out because all the negativity is slowly consuming you. you turned to the goddess for guidance, and she answered your call. if you want a step by step literal translation of your dream let me know, that's just what i felt it said. [you could also count this as a sort of dedication since you asked for the Goddess to accept you as her child.]