glad you two calmed down really quickly. so, meditation is the best method to finding what your spirit animal is. if you have trouble meditating, you should try working at it a little at a time. try music in the background or something. nothing with lyrics, try classical or something. another method, similar to meditation, is just to think about it. what qualities do you have, what qualities do some animal species have, what animals do you feel drawn to, what animals seem calmer around you. a spirit animal tends to show itself to you, so keep an open mind at all times.
also, 'magic' or 'magick' it doesn't really matter. it comes down to preference really, but if you look up 'magick' you run a higher chance of finding actual spells and not 'illusions'. a friend of mine hates people spelling it with a k, myself i do only when looking up dragon magick, otherwise it comes up dungeons and dragons for me lol.
finally, you might want to keep calm. i'm not trying to start anything up, but your post started out intimidating, so the reply was valid, however it wasn't mature or wise. there will be people who disagree with you, especially online, you say you're are bad at focusing, but work on meditation. try closing your eyes and breathing slowly. over time work on shutting out all thoughts. when my grandmother was teaching me, she told me to just say 'one' in my head over and over or count my breathes. it will help you tune things out and focus in on another. if you can put aside a minute a day to just sit alone things will come easier. sit in your room, or outside, and just observe things. my boyfriend has ADHD so he can't focus well, but he's very spiritual and wants to learn, so i know where you're coming from. it won't be easy, but it's very rewarding, and a good idea in the long run. blessed be.