welcome. how good is your grasp on Chaos? i'm a dragon practitioner so i need to work with chaos. i'm asking because i'm a very logical person, so while i get chaos, i don't have a strong handle on it. blessed be.
By it's very nature you can't grasp chaos. Understand that things just happen. Good and evil, right and wrong, light and dark, up and down; these are relative concepts that we apply to random chance so that we can pretend things happen for a reason.