I am new here too. Like you, I have always felt different since young but I have ignored this for quite some time too. Only recently did I started getting weird dreams and a feeling to learn Magick. One day, I just decided to search for something too, and it led me to this site too.
I have read a science-fiction novel before and it said that a Magician will find his/her own way to the school of Magick without even being told about it. I somewhat believe in this, and that is why I am here I guess. The decision to learn Magick is up to you ultimately.
Pleasure to know that someone out there also got here like how I did.