I understand completely :) I tried this again last night, and today I feel more relieved. I opened a circle and lit a black candle. My deepest feelings came up to the surface, and I almost cried. But it felt good afterwards. there are so much negativity from my past. I remember fear, anxiety, shame, hate and bad confidence. Its better to release all these feelings instead of denying them. I will continue this cleansing until its finished.
Cry it out - don't almost cry! Sit in a milk and honey bath and cry, cry, cry, if that's what your body needs.
Take up an internal practice that fills your body with health and healing. I personally like qigong. I can vouch for kundalini yoga and tai chi. Certain meditation practices that seek to vitalize the body are good as well.
Also, be careful of believing the stories you create in your mind. Craft new stories to replace the old ones that do not serve. You can take any negative situation and experience and find a different way to be with it.
You'd be surprised at the darkness our minds generate, and then we're crazy enough to believe it! Happens to me all the time!
Yeah its true ldygry. I have learned in the past 2 years that my brain sometimes makes my problems 10 times worse. And under these 2 years I cried almost every day. Its sad but true. I was so weak and broken on the inside, it was horrible to watch myself in the mirror every morning and see that miserable face over and over again. Today I have learned my self to appreciate my self and what I have, I feel happy and never cries. I think all people can feel this way sometimes in their lives.
Try burning dragons blood and white sage all around the house, or sprinkle water, then once you do this cast out the bad feelings formally put energy into like every spell, and believe it worked
I do something similar to what spectator said quite often. In addition, I burn sage and also visualize all of the negative energy going into the five small amethyst crystals I place on my altar to do this. Amethyst naturally absorbs negative energy, so it works rather well. You can also arrange them in a pentagram, but do it in the banishing fashion.(lower left, to top point, to lower right, etc.)
