Holy run on sentence Batman!
Stream of consciousness is great, but this confuses the heck out of me. I can tell that you write as you speak. There isn't anything wrong with that. But you have to breathe sometime. Place a period when you would breathe lol.
Now, as for what I do understand from this.
How is "understanding another person" the "biggest spell out there"?
How is it a scary place not to understand someone? To not understand yourself -- that would be scary to me. However, not many people strive, nor care to know indepth information on another individual. It's called "privacy" for a reason. If the person wanted you to know, then you would. If not, the person probably doesn't trust you enough with their private thoughts, and you should respect that. And as for mysteries of the universe. What's wrong with them remaining a mystery?
Magick is not meant to be used as a weapon. It can be used as a weapon, but its original use was just as simple as breathing. To a magickal practicioner, magick is like an additional appendage to their body. It's a part of them that they take everywhere. They use it as an ally to life, not to get whatever they want in life.
Someone who attempts to use magick greedily, will soon realize (1) How meaningless their life has become or (2) How much magick can make life worse if used haphazardly.
You mention removing this understanding from the mind so that it is reset to ignorance? Are you daft? Magick doesn't work like that. There aren't on and off switches.