For why, I would like to know if, by chance, in a past life, I had tried magic, and possibly excelled. If that were so, I could take those experiences and incorporate them in this life. And actually, I've found a couple spells.
emirs... There are people who are busy trying to figure out their pasts and peer into the future in search of magical solutions. I just have one thing to say them, that the magic is in the now, in the present and how you choose to deal with the present.
Hope you find what you're looking for... although i feel u dont have to go as far as the past or the future. Good luck