Let me start with myself before I get into what I ask.
I am a man who has a lot of energy. Unfortunately the energy that I posses are extremities of a double edged sword, Positive and Negative. I am heavily consumed by negative energy most of my life prodominetly when I am alone, but I have learned how to manipulate and fine tune it at times. My personality is that of a lonewolf, I do not enjoy the company of many friends and I turn down a lot of people who want to be around me. I even broke a lot of female hearts because I did not desire nor wish to pursue any kind of relationship. Somewhere around fifteen to twenty or so. . . I prefer to live in the dark with limited to no light. I am athletic and run a lot. I?ve been a runner for over a decade.
I am intellectual and obtained a powerful knowledge for things natural and even unnatural. I feel people?s energies, their emotions, and energies of things I cannot explain or no not where they come from. I have a powerful mind?s eye and able to see perspectives from outside of the body. This includes manifesting something in my mind imangtively of which that is absent, or not entirely there. I like logic and proof and science. But I do not always follow my mind. I follow and read energy as well with logic and explanations. I understand Psychology to a degree and the understanding and controlling of how human minds work, emotions, and energies. I also understand Ethics of the light and dark sides to this power. Control of one?s? or another?s energies or emotions is very powerful and is sadly not always in good hands? I chose to be those good hands. But I struggle with myself with the burden of having too much negative energy. I have tested many times my flow of energy especially through my artwork.
This is a manifestation I have once chosen of myself outside of me? I can?t explain it and it sounds bizarre. I have a face with no eyes or head. Just hands, mouth, and a nose like paper. I don?t have eyes or ears because I can see with my mind instead. I am not hostile. I can help people if they seek at times logic or guidance.
As to the reason why I am here is I wish to try something new. A control and test method.
I have a ring that I have purchased recently. It has an onyx stone and it is high quality. Black. The ring is made of silver and will turn black over time? I wish for it to consume my negative energies and/or channel them very potently. Sort of a bond from myself. I have felt like I have been prey to negative things at times in this world but I also feel like instead of a hunter hunting me. It feels like to me the hunter hunting the hunter. I am a hunter as well or could be if I chose. My choice is not to do evil. The only difference is I am alive and breathing and I still feel this power. I also have fear too? I am human. I still live, laugh, love, care. Everything is extreme. Good and bad. I feel energy even from simple insects and I cannot deprive its life nor have a hard time doing so just because it exists. It bothers me when people kill an insect because it?s a bug or simply because it exists. I feel its energy going away when it dies? It?s not a good feeling. Probably why I get negative energy?
Moving on to the point, is there a spell or methods I can do to enchant or enhance this ring to suit my needs. I can draw and flow my emotions into my drawings. I can draw circles or related spells. Visual powerful cantations in picture form if I chose to create. I wish for the ring to amplify or diminishing my power as I please. Sort of as an energy sink and energy flow like a valve controlling water.
Any advice would be most generous.