|To all who care, I am creating a new acount so I can chat, my username will hopefully be Lillymoon518. If you can find me PM me if you like, I'll finally be able to ans.wer
My bat-mitzva is coming soon, wish me luck.
Thanks for the advice, everything is starting to get better but I'm still a little tense. Is it me or should a 12 year old not have to go through all this. And ya, I'm pretty sure the wolf is my sprit amimal, I understand them, what a pack can go through especially in the winter, I can just smell the death thinking about it.
I acn't massage anybody for some reasone so if you send me a message look here for the respose.
I can scense demons, gosts etc.
My family does not know what I do, and they don't even belive in it.
I'm very young and have recently met a person in the same sicuation as me.
I have an spirit animal, she id a grey wolf, I have named her Lilly and I vowed that the second I forget her name she shall leave forever. Also my element is water I greatly admire it and am thankful for it's existance. Although I admire all the elements A frea of burning, falling, and lose of breath alway exists in me, I have never had a fear of drowning.
One of my friends is a vamp. who drank from my brother(don't ask why we are friends), and yes my bro is alive and doesn't remember a thing
There has been alot of activity in my area so I need all the help I can get
I don't have much time for planing since I have scool so I mostly go on here at night.
Peopel say that I have a very holy energy so sometimes I make my friend sick.
Some times I can't sleep at night because demons come inot my room all the time.
I have hazel eyes and long curly hair.
I know that's a little much but I think most of the people on this site are trustworthy.
Hope you can help me.
(_) Drank so much you threw up ( I'm 12!!!)
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(_) Been arrested
(_) Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school
(_) Seen someone die ( Not yet anyways)
(_) Been to Canada
(_) Been to Florida
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Been lost
(x) Been on the opposite side of the country
(x) Gone to Washington , DC
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like dying....
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(x) Played cops and robbers
(x) Recently colored with crayons
(_) Sang karaoke badly
(_) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) Made prank phone calls
(x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) Laughed until liquid came out of the other end(laughed so much you peed)
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
(x) Danced in the rain ( love it )
(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus
(_) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) Blown bubbles
(x) Made a bonfire on the beach
(_) Crashed a party
(_) Gone roller-skating
(_) started a mosh pit
(x) own a knife
(_) ran away for more then a day
(x) got in a fight and lost
(_) got in a fight a won
(_) got dumped (not saying)
(_) got smacked then dumped
(_) smacked some one then dump them
(_) go to court
(_) go to jail
(_) get picked up by the cops
(_) tell a cop to :go to hell, go fuck him /her self ect...
(_) own a gun
(x) love some one
(x) hate some one
(x) love and hate some one
(x) think some one loves you
(x) think some ones hates you
(_) is gay
(_) is lez
(_) is bi
(_) is gay but no ones knows
(_) is lez but know one knows
(_) is bi but know one knows
(x) isn't any of them
(_) has a fagot parent
(_) was beat by mom or dad
(_) works out
(_) has a tattoo
(_) is goth
(_) is emo
(x) is something
(_) is an alien
(x) is ''idk''
(_) has ever been in boot camp
(_) ever been to juvy
(x) loves life
(x) hates life
(_) wants to die
(x) wants to live
(_) wants to die but not kill them self
(_) wants to kill them self
(x) has ever cut
(_) likes to cut
(_) loves to cut
(_) fuckin loves to cut
(x) thinks cutting is wrong
(_) thinks cutting helps (From a physcological standpoint not personal)
(_) is a drama king/queen
(_) doesn't care what people think
(x) cares what people think
(x) has more then 1 friend
(x) has a best friend
(_) is a goody goody
(_) is a bad ass
(x) believes in one gf one bf relationships(no cheating)
(_) has some one to talk to
(x) think your smart
(x) think your dumb
(_) think ur cool
(x) think your lame
(x) liked this thingy?
(_) disliked this thingy
My name is Chris
I am three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I can?t do a wrong
I can?t speak at all
Or else I?m locked up
All day long.
When I?m awake I?m all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come home
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I?ll just get
One whipping tonight.
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie?s bar.
I hear him curse
My name is called
I press myself
Against the wall.
I try to hide
From his evil eyes
I?m so afraid now
I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping
Calls me ugly words,
He says it?s my fault
He suffers at work.
He slaps and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And run to the door.
He?s already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken,
''I?m sorry!? I scream
But it?s now much too late.
His face has been twisted
Into an unimaginable shape.
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
Oh please God, have mercy!
Oh please let it end!
And he finally stops
And heads for the door
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor.
My name is Chris
I am three,
Tonight my daddy
Try not to cry
Mommy...Johnny brought a gun to school,
He told his friends that it was cool,
And when he pulled the trigger back,
It shot with a great, huge crack.
Mommy, I was a good girl, I did what I was told,
I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold!
When I went to school that day,
I never said good-bye.
I'm sorry that I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry.
When Johnny shot the gun, he hit me and another,
And all because Johnny, got the gun from his brother.
Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much,
And please tell Zack; my boyfriend; That it wasn't just a crush.
And tell my little sister; That she is the only one now,
And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now
And tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best
Mommy, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the rest
Mommy, tell my teachers; I won't show up for class,
And never to forget this, And please don't let this pass
Mommy, why'd it have to be me? No one, though. deserves this.
But mommy, it's not fair, I left without a kiss.
And Mommy tell the doctors; I know that they really did try
I think I even saw one doctor, trying not to cry.
Mommy, I'm slowly dying, with a bullet in my chest,
But Mommy please remember, I'm in heaven with the rest
When I heard that great, big crack, I ran as fast as I could
please listen to me if you would,
I wanted to go to college, I wanted to try things that were new
I guess I'm not going with Daddy, On that trip to the new zoo
I wanted to get married, I wanted to have a kid,
I wanted to be an actress, I really wanted to live.
But Mommy I must go now, The time is getting late,
Mommy, tell my Zack, I'm sorry I to cancel the date.
I love you Mommy, I always have, I know you know its true
And Mommy all I need to say is, ''Mommy, I love you''
In Memory of The Columbine & Virginia Tech
Students Who Were Lost
Try Not to Cry
Please if you would,
Don't smash this on the ground.
If you pass this on,
Maybe people will cry,
Just keep this in your heart,
For the people who didn't get to say ''Good-bye''.
Now you have 2 choices,
1) Pass this on, and show people you care, repost as
''Try Not To Cry''
2) Don't send it, and you have just proven how
cold-hearted you really are...
Its ok to cry, I cried, so can you