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i dont mean to question the logic of this site but i want to understand what is happening. For Months i have tired to cast 2 types of magic, a love spell and a money spell all by myself, i tried meditation, i tried every procedure i know and some that i see on this site because i keep hearing from every angle that " the best and the most potent spell is the one you cast or create by yourself" so after a lot of meditation i wrote a love spell to bring my husband back to us(me and our daughter) but it didnt work too and neither did the money spell. i could remember a time when i took a sick leave at work (i wasnt sick) for a week to help me focus on the spell. Then i met a spell caster who cast the spell for me and it worked within 2 weeks my husband came back and same thing for the money spell.
my point is, it changed my view on the whole "cast-your-spell-yourself" principle. is it possible that i am not just wired to cast a successful spell or what, i need answers to this because i want to be able to cast my spells myself, take for instance healing spells etc but its not working for me.
i left this site out of frustration then i just came back because it would be nice to be able to help myself or people going through problems too especially families and close friends.
In my opinion i concluded that maybe spell casters are specially called or chosen for the course or maybe we cannot just channel the same level of devotion they put into spell casting, its just my opinion i need a superior knowledge here.