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Lately I've been seeing spiders everywhere and when I say everywhere I mean every day in every building and in my dreams for the past week. I'm terrified of them even though I hate to admit it but I don't think I have anything to fear with them. What brought me to looking for help/information is tonight one landed on my phone as I was reading an article. Out of fear I ended up loosing sight of it. Then used a spell to force it to reveal itself and ended up killing it. I know it's just a spider but I've never felt so horrible for killing something in my life an that's coming from a life long hunter. Clearly if the spider meant me harm it would have landed two inches away onto me. Also a few days ago a Beatle like big dropped from my ceiling dead and only a husk remaining I believe it was the spider. I need answers does anyone know of a spirit or deity that may have a part in this? And Oman a spell anything and how to make amends for what I've done