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So, I am kind of looking for some good book recommendations or something. I am newish to magic. I'll explain why I say that. So, I grew up in a VERY Christian household. However, since I was little, I remember telling my mom that stuff would happen because I had a feeling about it. Sometimes, I would have dreams and they would feel so real, just like I was there. And then a day or two later, these things would happen. And of course, since they were Christian, they tried to "get the devil out" of me, and I ended up suppressing a lot. I also dream nearly every night (I still do), that I can heal with my hands and thoughts, manipulate fire, and levitate, and some telekinesis. I have tried some telekinesis in my waking life, with some results. And the psychic dreams happen sometimes, but I can feel a block. Like deep down I feel like it's evil or something. Oh, and when I was 10 or so, I remember having a distinct dream about a tragedy happening to this little girl that was trying to fly around the world solo. I remember the clothes she was wearing, the smell of the airplane, her and the man next to her screaming, the pressure in the cabin (I had never been on a plane before). And then the next day when I woke up, I learned that she had crashed early that morning. Before I had awakened. I told my mom and of course, that didn't go well. I also "made up" my own secret alphabet so my mom and siblings couldn't read it. And I found out this week that the symbols that I wrote were the magical alphabet and some runes. And I had never been exposed to that stuff. There at also other things, but this is really long. I just want to figure out how to unlock my potential and I want to learn as much as I can about magic. It feels like home to me.... thanks in advance!