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I have been a solitary white wiccan since I was 7yrs, not true I've had many teachers. Now 33 looking back at 17 I started doing things my way grad. out of school early to run off to the Army. From there I have been walking down the same path with the same set back i.e. Right when I have saved up money something goes wrong(in savings $800, car wont pass smog. So now I need a new car and all the fees attached) so $800+ turns into -$4000 and a monthly bill.
So what do I need to do to get off this path? It can't be a lesson yet to learn, and I clens my house often little neg. enryg. Just need a leg up, open for suggestions