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Hi all, i realise my post will most likely get me shunned, but i have thought this through and am willing to suffer the backlash if it comes as I'm already in hell.

in 2011 i met a young lady via work who was going to play a big part in my life, she taught me life humility and love, introduced me to her family.
in Jan 2012 she was pregnant with my child which we lost and things went down hill, i stayed supported her through the depression,eating disorders and therapy.

she got out of the slump and blossomed we got stronger, i was there all the time and so she took me for granted, a month ago she smashed my heart into a million pieces telling me she is seeing another, i cry daily and am hurt, i have contemplated suicide but i have a son so i can't do that, i now realise i must do the unethical and learn to conjure what i can to help myself.

I realise people will say move on etc., i have tried this and slept it a half dozen women and dated as many but my heart wants her, i figure with the daily pain and nightmares I'm already dead so why worry about karma ?

maybe i'm self serving but i love her and i can't go on , i realise i may die of a broken heart, has anybody ever cast a spell and got their lover back ?

i'd appreciate replies and if this is not to everyone's taste and i get free will nut i have tried and failed to let go.judge me if you will but this is my path.