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Something?s has been bothering me for a while now my mind keeps turning it over and over and its festering and rotting. Ha great way to start my question off huh? Well anyway I?ve been lurking for a while and study alchemy mostly I?m studying grimoires and ancient text but everything things like a puzzle and it seems I?m missing quite a few pieces. I would like to put it together though but, it?s not alchemy I?m having the biggest problems with it?s the afterlife. I understand people have their beliefs and I?m not trying to put anyone?s down or anything but I could use you better judgment iv meditated on it for a bit but I can?t put it together even though I feel it?s right in front of my face screaming at me. Anyway so far I found information by looking at a lot of NDE's and comparing but that perfect forgiving god their depicting dose not add up. I?ve seen a lot of paranormal investigations about Psychic seeing demonic creatures and beings for that to make sense. Has anyone got a clue to help me? (by the way I'm getting new theory's so I might update soon too)