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Hello everybody,i don't want to bother you too long.I just have a question that i cant seem to find the answer for.Im not a person who asks alot usually,i like solitude.Thats the problem..I can't find any.I hate being around people,and loud things,usually brought on by people.I cant even go into town,a simple thing like getting bread sends me crazy me.The one thing that calms me down is emptyness,solitude a place where nobody is.But lately people are everywhere,allways in my face,Its getting to me as i cannot study anymore,Im so stressed and i freak out really fast..I screamed and threw the telephone as is rung next to me,in a office area.I also punch something or take a annoyed deep breath as anything else goes off,telephones mostly,even the comunicators at my work.I am really broken down lately,and i have tried everything.meditating,going to the library,its so loud there,and even sleeping pills,i even sleep for easily 9-10 hours,but the next morning im in exactly the same state.I had vacation a few weeks ago,and everything was good for a few weeks,2 to be exact.Please anybody...any idea,i would appreciate so much.All i want is solitude,quiet.How can it be so much to ask,Im starting to question my insanity as i feel like im going to go crazy.