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Hi all, thanks for reading this. I may be a little familiar, I was originally "metalwitch" but I made a different account since the original was being not too good to me. So I need some advice from anyone who chooses to help. I have been studying magic and paganism since age 14, I'm now 17. At around the beginning, I was looking it up online and my mom caught me. she said how she doesn't want me being wiccan or doing magic, that she would rather me do it years after turning 18, but she prefers me never being a part of it. She used to be wiccan, but now follows more of the native American spirituality. She suggested I follow that instead. I looked it up, and really a few of the beliefs about nature I already believed in. But I felt that wicca was truly right for me, more than anything else. So I continued my studying in secret. Only a few friends of mine knew about it. I still practice now, and still feel that its right for me, but at the same time I feel guilt because I'm doing something behind my parents' backs. I wish I can be open about my beliefs to them and they'd accept... I hate the secrecy, and in a way I feel like doing something they wouldn't accept would bring me negative karma (I follow the wiccan rede) What are your thoughts on this mess? Any advice? Thanks! Blessed Be.